Carol Diehl's Art Vent: For the Men Who Still Don't Get It

Carol Diehl's Art Vent: For the Men Who Still Don't Get It: The current state of feminism has occupied my mind lately, not the least because a poem I wrote 20 years ago, essentially ...

Found: Another Work of Art via Tumblr

you fell in love as soon as we met

but i fell for you seven days before that

i glanced at you for three seconds and you blew me away

and over six hundred thousand seconds later

when i thought i had collected my confidence

you had already initiated conversation

i had never seen such an elegant being

i was in awe in every sense of the word

i was like a puzzle just shy of one million pieces

and my train of thought was the only one missing

you fill my chest with the sweetest air i have ever felt

yet i think if you take one more breath from my lungs

they will cave and infatuate themselves with my heart

we spoke again three weeks later (i think)

nothing could have stopped the stuttering of my words

i didn't know what it was about you

maybe it was your light vanilla scent

or your vibrant smile and autumn eyes

but you were beyond captivating and gorgeous

you were mine and i was yours

this was it

i love you,

i love you,

i love you.

h.c.

I'm not sure who H.C. is, but this was too beautiful not to share.

More Pictures

Hopefully you will be able to see how the headlight moved into the engine, that the alternator is crushed and the engine isn't supported at all anymore, since the frame has bent.

The trunk won't close all the way, but this truly is the best of all the damage done to this car, in all it's miles and years.

A few better perspective pictures, to show how far in the headlight is and where the engine used to be as compared to where it is now.

**Also, I currently have a rental car, a 2013 Hyundai Accent which I adore. I'm going to be so sad when I have to give that back. I'm allowed to take it to NY, so I won't ruin my Christmas plans. Things are turning around a bit, but I don't know how I'll replace the Corolla at this point in time. But it will work itself out.**

Kaitlin's First Car Accident

I got in a car accident today. I'm okay, just a sore shoulder from the seat belt and a headache/possible mild concussion. And a very bruised ego, along with an overwhelming amount of anger at myself.

I was getting on I91 at Exit 20 in St. Johnsbury, which has a big, sweeping curve as its entrance before it meets up with the actual interstate. Speed limit is 45 mph, and I was doing about 35, because of the bad weather and it was snowing pretty heavily. As I reached the point where the entrance ramp meets the interstate, I started to speed up, and the back end of the car hit some ice and snow and started to come around. I automatically took my foot of the gas and tried to correct the car by turning the other way. Apparently I over corrected, because the car was suddenly going the other way and I slammed into the concrete median thing, to prevent drivers from driving off the overpass. (Thank God) I hit the front right of the car first, and very hard, and then the back end swung into the concrete median as well.

It doesn't look that bad, but the majority of the damage is to the engine. The close up of the headlight is where it shows the most, since the headlight got move in about a foot. My brother when he came to pick me up popped the hood, and the engine is moved back and diagonally a bit. The alternator is crushed, and part of the frame is sitting on the ground. And the engine was leaking some sort of fluid, but I'm not sure if it was oil or starter fluid or whatever. So my car will most likely be totaled, since it's got 223000+ miles on it, and it's only worth about $4000 at the most.

I'm just utterly embarrassed and upset and disgusted at myself. I have no idea how I'm going to get to Castleton to register for classes on Thursday. I'm most likely not going to be able to go to NY anymore, because if the car gets totaled (I should know tomorrow), the rental I get tomorrow morning will need to be returned. I haven't even begun to think about how I will be able to do hotline, because no one in my house gets home until 5:30-6pm, and if I get a call where I have to meet someone, it's a real inconvenience to have to tell them they have to wait until my parents get home so I can borrow the car. The only thing I have to be thankful for is that I'm okay, and that my semester is over, so I don't have to worry about getting to my classes.

I'm just so frustrated. I couldn't have picked a worse time to get in an accident. My family already couldn't afford to do Christmas presents this year, not to mention replace a car. And now I add more to mine and my parent's stress levels. It would be nice to catch a break. What's that saying, Can't win for losing? That's me right now.

Update: 12/18  I am currently in Waterbury at my mom's work waiting to hear back from enterprise about a rental car. Since I'm under 21, I have to be approved by corporate before I can get a car. But I should have one by tonight, and I will be able to get to Castleton. The car is currently at a mechanics body shop, where I will go Thursday afternoon to pick up all my stuff and the license plates from the car, and Friday the car will be inspected and they will tell me it's totaled, and then I will have to get a new car. But I've got a couple of different options at the moment, so I just have to sit back and wait for a little while.

Beyonce is the Queen

For those of you who are living under a rock (jk, jk), Beyonce released an album on December 13th at midnight, without promoting it at all. It has sold 828,773 copies worldwide in just three days, as reported by Apple, and is the number one album in 104 countries. Basically, Beyonce is the queen. No one, in my opinion, can get on her level. I obviously have bought it, as much as I'm going on about it. And I can't stop listening to it. I just love it so much, and I love her. This is quickly turning into a post about my lady crush on Beyonce, but whatever. So far, my favorites are Pretty Hurts, Partition, Flawless, and Blue. I think they're on YouTube by now, so give them a listen and let me know what you think.

Six word stories

As usual, my brain is a jumbled mess of whatever happens to be going on in my life and whatever I have experienced that day. Today, like usual, it's more poems and tidbits from Tumblr. But more specifically, six word stories that (for me at least) leave you wanting more. Here are some of my favorites.

You deserve happiness. So I left.
She chased clouds hoping for rainbows.
Laughter long ago swallowed by shadows.
Do not laugh. We need dreamers.
Smoldering ashes. You stole my fire.

(These are all from the same blog and author) 

(These are just random finds on Tumblr)

I miss how you wanted me. 

You are somebody. Not some body.

The people you love become ghosts.

I discovered myself while discovering you.

Someone loving you doesn't fix you.

We all die with unanswered questions.

Under your finger tips, I matter.

Eye contact: how souls catch fire.

There are no winners, only survivors.

Hearts grow heavy with the sea.

But with you, it was different.

And finally, a Margaret Atwood quote: "There are mountains inside your skull," which comes from the longer quote:

at last you, will say
(maybe without speaking)

(there are mountains
inside your skull
garden and chaos, ocean
and hurricane; certain
corners of rooms, portraits
of great-grandmothers, curtains
of a particular shade;
your deserts; your private
dinosaurs; the first
woman)

all I need to know:
tell me
everything
just as it was
from the beginning.